A brand new year

2015 was an extremely challenging year. What doesn’t kill us will just make us stronger I guess. Today’s the very first day of 2016, a new chapter begins again. I hope that I’ve become stronger and more resilient. And I have learnt that there’s no point on holding on to emotions, people or things that are toxic for me. It was a difficult and painful year living a ‘hermetic’ life. It came to a point where I was just numb to everything.

I begin today on a clean slate. I want to lead a life that is not like a recluse. I need to care more about my health. And maintain a balanced diet. I don’t have this foolish notion that  I will lose all these excess weight and achieve the figure I had a decade ago within this year. Instead I just want to go and exercise more so that just maybe I won’t drop dead so soon. I need to embrace solitude, for in it I believe I will learn to appreciate myself more. I have learned that true friends though just a few will stick  with you even if you’re in the darkest depths of despair. And these friends, I know that I will cherish. 2016 I hope this year I will be better, brighter and  more joyful.

NaPoWriMo 2015 Post #6 Adventures on the MRT


Walking in the hot sun for 25 minutes
To the MRT station daily at noon
Surely can be considered a cardio workout
And an unwanted daily tanning session
I’ve grown much darker too soon
Oh the joys of public transportation
Trapped like a can of sardines
For the next 14 minutes
I bury my nose into my book
Desperately trying not to smell
The ponytail swishing lady in front
Or the overpowering cologne of the man behind
Oh I wish there were empty seats
So that I can have some space to breathe
Fat chance of that happening
When at the next station
Even more passengers push through
Front, back and centre, a tight squeeze
Finally the train stops at City Hall
And I couldn’t be more pleased
When everyone in front of me disembarks
And I get off the train with ease!

NaPoWriMo 2015 Post #5 I don’t think people around me know

I don’t think people around me know
How hard it is for me to smile
Or have  happy thoughts
It usually takes me a little while

I don’t think people around me know
That I don’t laugh and play all day
When my mind’s concerned
Over all the bills that I have yet to pay

I don’t think people around me know
That I wish I could curl up into fetal position
And sleep in bed all day
Perhaps then this constant migraine might finally go away

NaPoWriMo 2015 Post #4 Dites-moi

Those words that you rarely utter
That phrase that  I longed to hear
Whether I still matter?

The reason my heart aches
  Believing in you was a mistake
  Was everything said fake?

  The truth that it’s over between us
  That you were not the kind to marry
   Why string me along like a passing fancy?

   Why is it so hard to speak the truth?
   Why must you run away from reality?
   Why can’t you just tell me?