So I turned another year older today. Blessings and good wishes from mom, grandma, aunts, uncles, cousins and far far away friends made this day very special to me. If only those who are far away were nearer though. This year, I hope that my health improves, lesser financial worries, spending more time effectively at the gym and lastly to finding happiness.
I’ve been participating in the #100happydays project, trying to find the little things that make me happy. Sometimes it’s just really hard to figure out what’s that one thing that made me happy. And somedays I would just have plenty to take pictures of. My birthday mark’s the 77th day I’ve been doing this project, and if you were to take a look at my instagram, it would seem that food and music make up a huge proportion of those pictures. What can I say, good food makes me really happy. (That’s why I need to spend more time at the gym!) And music, well music makes me feel good, makes me want to sing out loud and that reduces my stress, entertains my mommy and amuses my brother which equates to everyone being happy. :)
I really hope this will be a better year then the last, that life will be full of sunnier days in the future.
A whole month has passed and I must say doing this for the second time, it’s definitely a challenging and fun month. Midway I hit a slump, but I managed to catch up eventually. I guess with these kind of challenges, one just have to keep on reading and keep on writing. I wonder what NaPoWriMo 2015 will bring? I leave you with a poem of goodbyes.
Thirty days have passed
Like the blink of an eye
Poems in various forms:
Curtal sonnets, anaphora, lunes oh my!
I learn lots whenever April comes
But as Napowrimo ends today
Accept my adieus, auf Wiedersehens, zàijiàns
Farewells, goodbyes and مع السلامة
Perhaps next year we will meet إن شاء الله
Whoah it’s the 29th post already! The prompt was called the “Twenty Little Poetry Projects” and was developed by Jim Simmerman. The list of projects are to be used in one poem can be found here.
An islet on a raging river
I am an islet on a raging river
10°N of the equator and it’s arctic cold
I see the goosebumps on my arms
As I stand alone and shiver
Fingers so stiff, nothing I can hold
Taste of bitter bile in my mouth
Tried to wash it away with water
Yet nothing seems to alter
The rapid currents so loud
Are the only sounds that I hear
Whilst the scent of fast moving freshwater
Stimulates my senses with a blue-coloured hue
Alone unlike Psyche on the River Estige
Who had an eagle for company
Hark, I hear the distant cry of a raven
Perhaps I am not that alone
Should the raven find a nearby tree
Across the raging river
To build itself a new home
Maybe I could call it HAN
If you fly over here
Maybe we could be friends
Perhaps this loneliness will end
It oht fi rain
The never-ending rain of despondence
Ascendancy of despair
Oh I must snap out of this self-pain
Break out of this cocoon of gloom
And dance in the pouring rain
Fairy-duh twirls and jumps in the air
May she one day live without a care
Of what other say or think
Oh solitary soul
Get out of this invisible prison!
Find your raison d’être!
“Go forth and live live unfettered!” cries the raven
Jump into the raging currents
And swim across the river.
• it oht fi rain is Patois for it looks like rain
•HAN is internet slang for “alone” (Han Solo)
•RUA is internet slang for Are you alone?
•raison d’être is French for reason for being/living
I saw this article, Mr Spock in Singapore and thought a lune might be suitable. Zachary Quinto will be in Singapore for a week to film Agent 47! Pretty exciting news that young Mr Spock will be in this city state! Prompt 28 was to pick a news article and write a poem using words from the article. I’m using Jack Collum’s version of a lune with a 3 line stanza with 3 words, 5 words and ending with 3 words.
Spock in Singapore!
Spock in Singapore!
Agent 47 for a week,
Gracing our shores!
Okay so today’s poem is a little different than what I usually do. I tried to write this in English but it didn’t sound quite right to me, so I wrote it in Malay instead. I took this picture in 2013 in a little fishing village in Malacca, Malaysia. And this phrase, “Sampan di tepi muara” kept stuck in my head since last year.
The title means small rowing boats by the side of the estuary. Sampans are small row boats, fishermen in this village go out at dawn to go fishing till late afternoon. Oftentimes, their catch is never enough. So their wives would usually take the tiny fish their husband caught and make into dried salted fish to sell in the markets.
Tatkala subuh mendatang
Nelayan berpusu-pusu ke sampan mereka
Sampan ditambat di tepi muara
Setiap hari harus mendayung
Mencari ikan untuk menyara hidup
Seharian mencari rezeki di laut tidak akan cukup
Terikan mentari sungguh menyengat
Untuk menyara keluarga harus tetap semangat
Si Istri di rumah menjemur ikan dihalaman
Ikan kering di buat jualan
Menambahkan pendapatan harian
Anak-anak di sekolah mencari ilmu pengetahuan
Terus berusaha membaiki kehidupan
Untuk masa hadapan yang cerah
Walaupun kehidupan sekarang ini sangat susah.
My solitary refuge from the crowds
Sea winds caress my face
Accompanying me as I sit in a daze
Grey skies with darkened clouds
Lightning strike and thunders so loud
On the breakwater I sit unfazed
Rain pouring down so fast
Enduring this emptiness inside
Raging rains will eventually stop
This aching loneliness will not last
I shouldn’t hide.
Whilst trying to write a draft on my S4 for the Anaphora, my S4 decided to hang on me, I got so desperate at 2am, I woke my brother up just to figure out what’s wrong. He wasn’t happy to be woken up but he managed to restart it, but my draft was gone!!! I started afresh at 2:18am and wrote about my angina attacks instead. Had an attack yesterday afternoon. Actually I always forget to take my meds on time, but my mom makes sure I do. Aren’t moms and not so little brothers great? :)
I desperately clutch my chest
Sudden acute stabbing attacks
Heart is seriously in a mess
I desperately bite my lips
To stop from screaming out loud
Don’t want unwanted attention from the crowds
I desperately need my pills
Small, white tablet for my ills
Nitroglycerin slowly dissolving under my tongue
I desperately find a bench
A few minutes till chest pains relieved
Sit and wait with hands clenched.
I desperately wish I could drink water
Wash away the tingling sensation
Side-effect I wished the doctor mentioned
I desperately need a painkiller
Headaches and lightheadedness start
Medicine is finally working hard for my heart.